Hey. How have you all been?

Ive been so so I suppose. Seems like when things just start getting better some other matter of drama pops up in my life, and well all of that has just kept me very busy.

Just a quick overview of what has happened:
1) lots and lots and lots of boy drama
2) lots and lots of friend drama, some of which is currently going on with a boy... oh those boys... I dont understand them.
3) SCHOOL! has kept me crazy busy. I just found out that I have to take 3 more classes in the fall too, when I thought I was going to be through after this summer... and they are very hard classes too: Calculus 2, Physics 1 and lab, and Chemistry 1 and lab... and keep in mind these are college level courses, not high school Im scared.
4) I was arrested a couple of weeks ago [Id rather not go into detail about that], but now Ive got that crap to deal with
5) lots of money problems... which included at one point, the IRS seizing my parents and mines bank accounts
6) found out my mom has breast cancer [on the same day I was arrested no less]

and yeah... thats the majority of it right now, there are more little tid-bits in there that help escalate things, but I wont go into those.

Its like, my god, can't I get a break from any of this drama! The only real break I feel like I have is when I get the chance to hang out with my friends.

So school, work, and friends have been keeping me occupied lately, and I just havent felt like being super active on here [and by that I mean commenting, trust me Ive been faving like a crazy woman... just not in the mood to talk to many people]. I have a ton of pictures I need to edit, and although I have had the time, I just dont feel motivated at all to do any of that... dont feel motivated to do much of anything.

Well, my little escapade with the cops lead to a long talk with my mom where I finally admitted to her that I have been severely depressed for at least the last 2 years... so off to the shrink I will be going soon. Im kind of looking forward to it because I am so tired of being depressed and feeling like there is nothing I can do about it, but at the same time I think I will be really nervous when I start just because I will have to share everything... when I am in contrast a very private person to people I dont know that well. But I guess in the end it will be a good thing because I just have felt very very unstable lately, lots of mood swings that are abnormal for me.

I feel like a really shitty person right now basically.

Well yeah, thats all Ive really got to talk about now... just felt like writing a journal tonight.